jim and pam.

ok so with it being valentines day, i have a few things to get off my chest. 1. i think it is too over celebrated. 2. i think if you really care about someone they should get flowers, or cards, or whatever on any random day, not just one day a year. ok now i'm not saying it isn't sweet to do something special for whoever on valentines day, i think that’s great! but i don't know. i've just never been a fan. maybe it is a little bitterness because i've never had "someone" during valentines day, but because of that i realize the other side of the day and how it feels. now, I don’t want a pitty party. i'm at a good place in life and actually pretty happy. i'm also very thankful that it didn't work with the people i've been with because obviously it wasn't suppose to be and i know that is a blessing, whether i realize it right now or not. i know in the long run it's better to wait and be happy then to settle. that doesn't always mean it's easy. i feel like there is so much pressure on being single and 25. part of that is the small town, everyone thinks you should be married by 21 and if you aren't something is wrong with you. Sometimes i do start feeling like it's me, something that i am doing wrong. today, for instance, i can't tell you how many people asked who i was having a "hot date" with tonight. when my response was no one i either got "what? why not?" orrrrr "ok, well i'm going to find you someone" both responses are awkward. maybe, i’m too sensitive, which i’ve heard, but it can be awkward and hurtful, in a way. just for future reference :) haha i know it will happen for me, it just takes time, or that’s what i hear...it’s just a blah day and i needed to vent.

ok ,so i titled my post jim and pam because i love their relationship. yes, i know that its a tv show (the office!) but other than my parents, they have the relationship i admire the most. i like that they just go together. they get each other. i love the way their relationship came about and the way they will look at each other and know what the other is thinking. thats how it should be. last night on the grammy's katy perry sang a song called not like the movies. i looked the lyrics up and it's my new theme song. my favorite part of the song....

" If it doesn't stop time,
If you cant see the sign,
Wait for it.
One hundred percent,
With every penny spent.
He'll be the one that,
Finishes your sentences." ------cheesy, i know. don’t judge. :)

sometimes i feel crazy for even thinking that this is real or that it can really be like that but my parents have shown me a real life example of a movie relationship. and i admire that. and them. i know it will be worth the wait to have a relationship like theirs. so, yeah, i promise my blog isn’t always going to be about dating and relationships or a pity party but it feels good to get all of that out. i love you guys and your patience with me and your love you show to me. sooo yeah :)